Harder than I thought

We are sitting in the waiting room while O is in the back doing his thing at his 3rd day at Brain Balance.   When this began,  I thought this would be the hard part. Traveling 30 minutes to get here,  him receiving his 1 hour program treatment, then the 40 minute drive home (because traffic is worse then).  I really thought this would be the hardest,  then food would be really hard for him too.  Well, he’s thrown me for a loop!   His home program and exercises are a REAL STRUGGLE.  He doesn’t want to do it (correctly), no matter what we say or do.  We try to make it fun,  we set a timer and tell him he only has to work for that amount of time,  then we’ll take a break, we remind him of the Brain Bucks he gets to earn for doing his work, but so far we haven’t discovered what will help him actually do the exercises like he needs to.  I keep reminding myself that we are just in the beginning, and that it takes time for him to really get this,  but it’s hard.   I spend most of the time with him reminding myself not to get frustrated and breathing deeply so I don’t lose control while working on home program.  
Hopefully soon we’ll find how to reach him in this area.  He’s actually done well in the other areas of the program, so I’m trying to see the bright side of our situation.  

Emotional Eater

It was not that long ago I would have eaten my favorite (terrible for me) food to  help me deal with whatever emotional stress I was dealing with at the time…

I struggled with the idea that I was an emotional eater…

I didn’t want to accept the fact that I used food as a crutch to get me through hard times…

Food was my friend!  It brought me comfort, it tasted good, and it eased whatever pain I was going through.  It was my favorite coping mechanism.  But not long after eating, I felt GUILT.  It was awful!  It took me so long to truly realize and understand all these elements and put together a better way.

I have done a lot of work on myself in the last year.  I’ve read a lot of books, spent a lot of time learning about food and how REAL food helps my body.  I’ve succeeded and failed (a lot)  Now I know how to listen to my body better and avoid certain foods because they make my body feel awful or sluggish.  I even discovered that cabbage gives me migraines!  (who knew?)

One of the biggest things I’ve discovered?  I like to run!  ok, I know…not many people like to run, but I’ve found joy in it.  It is an amazing feeling to set a goal with my running and accomplish it!  It’s an awesome rush to cross a finish line and beat your previous time!  I never dreamed that one day I would enjoy running, but here I am!

We had a crazy, busy, stressful week where I spent most of it as a single parent because my husband had a lot of meetings in the evenings.  It happens sometimes, and we were doing pretty good handling it.  He asked me if there was something I wanted to do on Saturday on my own since I probably needed a little time away.  My very first response was, I want to run!  I want to go run and not worry about how long I’m gone.  I wanted to hit the trail and just GO.  This shocked me when I thought about it later…when did I change into someone who WANTED to run?!?

Well, I went!  I decided to run 5 miles.  It was a little longer than I normally run, but I have an 20160514_1648198k race coming up on Memorial Day, and I needed to get a practice run in.  It was hard!  My knees hurt, my back hurt, my toes even started to hurt…but I just kept telling myself, you can do this!  You can achieve this!  Don’t give up!  And I didn’t.  I hit 5 miles and it was AMAZING!  I was so glad I didn’t give up, and so thankful that I didn’t quit when it got hard.

This is my change of pace.  This is the new me.  No longer do I need food to help me get through the hard times in my life because I have figured out healthier ways to handle the blows life brings my way. No longer do I need to be an emotional eater!

How do you handle your stress?  What helps you when going through a lot of emotions?  Do you eat, run, meditate, draw a bath and turn on soft music?  How do you deal with life’s hard times?  I’d love to hear your ideas.

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